I used to feel I couldn’t get “no satisfaction.”
My hypercritical head would constantly pick apart whatever was in front of me to find things to fix or improve. What a torment, to walk around constantly criticizing everything inside and outside of me, and to carry the weight of the world because I felt personally responsible to fix it all. (Like every bit of roadside trash? Yup.)
These inner pressures ran my life but I was not conscious of them. They ran in the background, hidden from me.
Fifteen years ago the Enneagram showed me that most people think differently than I do.
I used to feel that anybody in their right mind would do as I do. (Don’t we all assume so?)
What a mind-blower to see nine unique approaches to life. (“Enne” means nine.)
What an eye-opener to realize I make my own trouble (as we all do in our special way).
What a breakthrough to know people are just being themselves, not trying to “get my goat.”
What a gift to shift from “that person is a jerk” to “they have a curious outlook.”
The Arizona Enneagram Association (AEA) has supported my journey all the way. From the first workshop to the many follow-on classes, we dug deeply into our instinctive behaviors and unfolded ourselves into more acceptance and inner peace. I soon became a member of the AEA, because this material is like a rocket ship to true stability and happiness, and I want to share it.
Yes, enneagram work is that transformative.
It literally changed my life, my family, my work, my reality. I found more love for self and others, more tolerance, more relaxation, better relationships, better health, not high blood pressure, not clenching my jaw anymore, not cracking teeth, not simmering and exploding like a volcano so much.
How wondrous, how empowering to know that I make my own suffering.
My head still talks like a perfectionist, a zealot, but not so fiercely.
I am wise to it, and that makes all the difference.
Even though perfectionism keeps biting me in the butt, at least I can see it (with the enne-eyes in the back of my head).
Nowadays I can shrug and say, “There I go again, making my own trouble.”
It is okay. In an odd way I see my trouble as just part of the circus.
I’m enjoying the whole circus of everybody.
I get mo’ satisfaction.
You can too.
Relax into your life.
Enjoy your circle of people, no matter how aggravating.
Understand who you are beyond the tight cage of your habit-of-mind.
The Arizona Enneagram Association is hosting:
Friday Nov 9th from 6 to 9 pm “Tour of the Nine Types” (a class by itself or as part of the weekend)
Workshop November 10-11 with great speaker, writer and teacher Russ Hudson, in
“Awakening to Our True Minds: Nine Ways of Knowing and Experiencing Reality.”
Location: Parish Hall at 4015 E Lincoln Drive, Paradise Valley, AZ 85253
Christ Church of the Ascension (CCA) Episcopal Church
I’ll see you there!